2NE1 - Ugly
Hi all.. this is gonna be a different post than usual. Maybe a little bit deep, because it's my personal thought. If you dont agree it's ok, cause everybody have they own thoughts ^^ This is gonna be a long.. long post.. just stop reading and click my neighbor's link if you're bored XD
Still related to beauty, everybody, especially female would be very happy if they're called pretty, beautiful, cute.. etc. But nobody is perfect. Not all girls are lucky enough to look good physically since they were born. And the society have their own standards to judge which one is pretty and which one is not. What a cruel world, but it's very human.
I remember when I was a little girl, I was so thin, SUPERTHIN, with my rabbit teeth and dull darkened skin XD. Nobody ever call me pretty except my mom and dad who always busy with their works, hahah.. And so did my big family, they never "see" me because Im not physically attractive compared to my cousins. As a naive little girl I didn't care that much. I was nice and clever, that was enough for me. But when I grew up to be a teenage girl, it was an important issue. Sometimes it was so sad when I was hanging around with my girl friends or cousins, the people only attracted to my beautiful friend or cousin. Even the store keeper or driver never look at my face when we talked, their eyes only looked at the beautiful looking person whose standing beside me, I was invisible XD. It was sad people.. really sad. (I write it deep down from my heart, nyahah..). It felt like.. "I cant live in this planet anymore.. Alien please take me to Mars, Pluto or wherever you want." XD Sometimes I wished I could do plastic surgery or something to make me look better XD but I was scared of knife & blood, hate the smell of hospital, and had no money! Hahah.. And my faith doesnt allow me to change my physical appearance if we dont need to.
Back to my life at the present, few weeks ago I went to a doctor, a skin specialist to cure my itchy-sensitive skin. First time I entered his room, he looked at my face, and told me to do a nose job (he could do a plastic surgery too!). And I was like.. (O.O?) I mean.. It's true that I have a flat nose and my face is asymetric but.. Seriously he said that??… I laughed, but he stared at me in straight face like this (-_-). He said a young woman like me should be more open minded and change my point of view about physical appearance. And I have to do some plastic surgery procedures to make my life happier. I can not say that I dont agree or agree to what he said. But.. I was amazed. I dont know why he did it, whether he just wanted to promote his clinic (he gave me his name card, you can call me if you are interested XD) or he said it deep down from his heart, my face is that ugly on his eyes. LOL. Even he talked about nipples, he said if women want to look good in bikinis, we have to remove our nipples because they are gross. I was like (O.O?) Who does he think we are? Barbie?
Beauty. what is it? Is it that matters? Yes it is. We are human beings who need recognition both physically or mentally. But should we change our physical appearance permanently to be more attractive? For the sake of any "beautiful" words? Is it that important? If I am a rich girl maybe yes I'll do. Nyahah.. But God is fair, he creates us as we are now on purpose. I talk to myself and think hard. Maybe if I was born pretty my life will not be the same. I wont be a person whose trying so hard to get what I want (some pretty creatures can get what they want easily, right? XD), I wont be as nice as I am now (Am I? Hahah..) and the most important thing is.. I wont be that into make up like now! I find my passion in make up, I fall in love and addicted. It can correct our shortcomings without change it permanently. Yes it's hassle, but it's fun! I could know myself better through make up. I know which part of my face should be showned up and which one should be covered. Thanks a lot to beauty companies who make our life easier!! Also thanks a lot to beauty bloggers and vloggers who inspires me so much! Thanks a lot to people who love me just the way I am! You guys have changed my life a lot! XD
And now beauty is no longer the biggest issue in my life. The most important thing is being a positive person who love my self, god, family and my lovers more. Although other people cant see it, it makes me feel beautiful! It works! ^^
Happy monday pretties!!
My FOTD: simple make up + smiles! ; )